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Because we were out late last night (getting a bed at IKEA! Because we just got our own apartment! Woo!) I didn’t see Nathan all day. He was asleep when I left for work, and asleep when I got back. I got up with him to feed him at four, but he never opens his eyes then.

So this morning, I dallied and dillied around after I got ready for work, knowing he liked to get up at 7 on the dot. Sure enough, I heard his morning grunting and “ooooh” ing, right on time. Screw being late. I ran in to kiss him and rub his soft little face against mine, crazed as a junkie needing a fix. He grinned and lit up when I bent down to grab him, and it melted me down to a puddle of mom goo. Just being away from him for 24 hours was enough to make me crazy. When did that happen?

I finally had to go, and it was hard. Up till now, it’d been different…work was an escape from the stress of being broke and dealing with a cute but non-napping baby. But he has so much personality now and is so sweet and funny, and yes, more beautiful than any other child who ever lived, and I just want to sit around and rub his face against mine 100 times a day.

The other day I got all sad, because I realized someday he’d grow up and be pimply and whiskery and his soft little baby face will be changed forever. I will love the person he becomes, but all the same, I’ll miss this little gurgly person who is always happy to see me. He’s snagged me good.

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